Two Little Chefs!

Just some fun pictures I wanted to share with everyone. Brylee and Ryan are so cute and when they aren't fighting they are the best of friends!
A good chef always tastes their creation first! Safety first! A happy chef makes a good chef!

A good chef always looks good while cooking!

Brylees 1st visit to the Dentist!

We don't really have dental insurance so I have been putting off taking Brylee to the Dentist. I figure all her baby teeth are going to fall out anyways right! J/K. Well I decided I have better stop putting off be a good responsible mom so we took her on Monday. She never will let Justin or I look at her teeth and always fights us when we try to brush them, so I thought this would be interesting to see how the Dentist would get her to open her mouth. The little stinker didn't even fuss. She just opened right up and let them do their thing. She was so good we were so proud of her. Her teeth look great except her bottom teeth have no space between them so the Dentist said it is really important that we floss them. Well of course when we get home and tried to brush her teeth that night, she fought us again and the dentist expects us to floss her teeth how?

Is it worth the risk. I hope the answer is no.

Well I Just turned 25 on the 19Th and I've been reflecting on my life, mistakes I've made,Good choices I've made,people I love, etc...I already think about my mom allot, but even more so now. I been thinking about how one single choice can change your life and peoples lives around you forever.
Twenty five years ago my mother gave birth to me. I'm sure she was excited and had so many hopes and dreams. Hopes and dreams that she would have wanted to share with her children. I'm sure she thought about what kind of mother she would have wanted to be. Having that mother daughter relationship. Watching us grow, helping us with those hard decisions everyone has to make in life, Dating, seeing us get married and have children(I know I have thought about these things with my children). Unlike most women I know she was always so excited to become a Grandma. She could have been such a great one. I imagine her having sleep overs with her grandchildren, making popcorn, watching movies, coming over to help with last minute school projects just like she did with me and helping me make creative Halloween costumes for my kids.She would have loved it and my kids would have loved her. All these things could have been if she wouldn't have made that one choice or if she would a have made the choice to get help once things got out of control.
I'm not sure when the decision was made. Before or after I was born. I guess it doesn't really matter. But she made the decision to take that first drink. I'm sure when she did, she had no idea how it would change her and her children's lives forever. I believe that if she was able to look into the future that choice would have turned out to be a different one. I'm not sure how long it took, but I'm sure it was shortly after. My mother became a alcoholic and headed down a path she never would have wanted. She lost everything her home, her faith, hope, her children, grandchildren, and finally her life.
I know some people don't agree with my decision to allowed limited contact between her and my kids. But what they don't understand is that I promised myself my kids would have a different childhood then mine. They wouldn't have to watch someone they love destroy there life. They may think that a child wouldn't understand or recognize these things going on around them. But no matter how hard you try to hide them. They do! It's my job as mother to protect them no matter what and I had to protect them from her. I wish so bad that things could have been different. That she would have taken one of those many opportunities she had offered to her to get help but she didn't. I love my mom and always had hope that someday she would get help and we could have that life together. That mother daughter relationship.The day she died took away that hope.
I just hope that something positive can come from her death. That someone can look at her life, her story and recognize that they don't want to take the chance to have that be there story. That alcohol, drugs, Prescription drugs or what ever demons that's creeping into there life. Just isn't worth it. I know that everyone who drinks doesn't become my mother, an alcoholic. But if there is even a small chance which there always is. Is it worth the risk. I hope the answer is no.

A Days Activities!!

Yesterday Bonnie convinced me to take Brylee outside and build a snowman with her. After seeing Tara build one with her kids I decided it wasn't a bad idea, plus I want Brylee to get use to the snow. Well at first she bawled then after she saw me playing in the snow she played in it for a few minutes and the watched me build our snowman. Then she bawled again till I picked her up out of the snow. I think she is scared of it. I built the snowman facing our back kitchen window so Brylee could look out the window at it. So now she will go over to the window and wave to the snowman while saying Hi. It really cute!
After playing in the snow we went inside and got out Brylees Christmas present her aunt Tara and uncle Rob bought her. It is a doodle mat we played with it for about an hour Brylee was even getting tired and still wanted to doodle so she started coloring whiled laying down.

Here is a cute Video of Brylee talking and how sweet she is with her little brother.

Brylee Loves to play with C.J. I'm sure she can't wait till he is a little older so he can interact with her a little more. She loves to kiss him, wipe his face, give him his Binky and of course dress him up. Here are some pictures of her latest dress up idea.

I love my kids and I'm so thankful that my husband works so hard to make it so I can stay home and have these moments with them. I will Cherish them forever.

A couple of weekends ago we went to my grandparents house for dinner. We took Brylees snow clothes so Justin could take her out side to play. We hadn't taken her out in the snow yet to play. Well all the kids wanted to come out and play. It turned into a big snowball fight. Everyone had a blast except for Brylee the only thing she liked about the snow was eating it.